Tuesday, March 18, 2008

扪心自问

昨天的我
痛心地哭和感到滑稽地笑
就那么只在一秒相隔而已
真如鬼上身,哈!

痛心
是因为他在我回忆里已经变质
不管是哪一方面的
也因为一时之间没能吞的下的委屈
让我在那倒反名字两兄弟面前落泪

滑稽
是因为我为何在意那莫须有的指责
还有不知情者的言论
谢谢他们的留言

但是我没有必要向任何人澄清
因为这始终是我和他的事情
真相,他清清楚楚地知道。

也好笑,因为我的部落格这几天格外热闹
看到那么多“支持者”为他“伸冤”
隔别了3年
我只想问他一句
在我说“我出来社会工作后会还你的”那句话后

扪心自问,你回答了我什么?
请不要说漏了你对我说过的话。

我不需要承担这些无谓的罪名,无稽的言论。

平静的生活归于平静。
走,喝茶去。

posted by 大眼睛 @ 9:05 PM  

10 Comments:

  • At 8:31 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    When the cheque was passed to college, you told me you'll pay me when u start workin. I tell you no need to rush, just pay me back when you start working. Other thing i say its ok ( other money that you owe me ) but College FEES I AM SURE I DIDNT SAY "DONT PAY ME BACK".IM VERY VERY SURE THIS IS WHAT I TOLD YOU AFTER YOU SAID U WILL PAY ME BACK. DON TRY TO TWIST. IM SURE WITH WHAT I REMEMBER. ITS YOU WHO NEED TO WAKE UP! After lend you, i didnt mention at all, till now. On first call, im using low / serious voice to talk with u, you tell me end of FEB - first of MARCH u will bank in the money, i AGREED. Later, i sms you my gf's account number and you AGREED to bank in too. Next day my mum suddenly call me and ask wat happen today? that girl call me she said she owe u money and wan to bank in but bank in to your gf account is NOT GOOD..i was shocked

    so I called u, you said i didnt give u the BANK NAME jus the account number. ok i admit its my carelessness and immediately apologize to you on the phone "is my mistake i forget to put the bank name" IM SORRY. But you call my mom because ur call cannot reach me is SUPERBAD excuse, u ask my mom for my bank account number and said bank in to my gf account is NOT GOOD. IM VERY ANGRY! THIS TIME REALLY PISSED ME OFF !! I GIVE MY GF ACC BCOS THE IS NEAR SO ITS CONVENIENT FOR ME OK?! OTHER BANK SO DAMN FAR STOP WASTING MY TIME. AND 1 MORE THING MY MOM 70YEARS OLD U THINK SHE KNOWS MY ACC NUMBER ?

    On the third call, first of march i call u, u say no money , u say you work in an event company and your company owe u salary about 2 month adi(i hope u are telling the truth, if not your company will sue you for defamation) i replied NVM after you bank in to me u sms me.


    After couple of week i saw your "JIN LAM YAN" entry, u blog about me ! i send sms to u said that i wan to meet u, and need to discuss the money problem, u reject and replied
    " if you still want your money back just wait. " you are very awful i tell you.

    I FEEL TOTALLY WTF

    i lowered down my voice to talk with you, 2 years i did not mention about the money and waiting for you to pay. now its you who owes me money, not me owe you why you do you BLAME me back? and said IM THE ONE WHO ASKED U DONT PAY BACK?I this is how you repay me? give me filthy name in your blog?? why "请你慢慢等吧!"? WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? i never said u must pay me back the money NOW.i jus ask from u when i onli can get back, did i give you deadline!? I DID NOT FORGET the amount but just want you yourself to check in case you say i cheat your money. Go home and sleep on three pillows to think back what you have said and don try to threaten to say it without missing any letters IM SAYING THIS WITHOUT MISSING ANY OF WHAT IVE SAID BEFORE

    I HATE YOU VERY MUCH BECOS -
    1.YOU PUT ME IN PUBLIC and dare to say people accuse you.
    2.YOU INVOLVED MY FAMILY AND YOU SAID im easily persuaded by others ..do you mean my gf?kind girl ! i warn u dont ever talk/write anything bad about my gf, its between u and me! never try to twist the truth and stop saying my gf not good this and that , why do you need to mention her as if she is the culprit behind all these?! wtf? YOU BLOG ABOUT ME AND BRING ME TO PUBLIC FIRST dont blame me for asking my gf to put you back in her blog!

    AND LAST - I AM SURE I DIDNT SAY "DONT PAY ME BACK".IM VERY VERY SURE THIS IS WHAT I TOLD YOU. IM SURE WITH WHAT I REMEMBER. NONEED to REPEAT i changed and different from your memories, you are not anyone to me anymore, and I NEVER CHANGE. IM ALWAYS ME, THIS IS ME DEALING WITH "kind girl", make it simple no need to involved and divert this problem to other unnecessary issues.

    I want back my money no matter what. Inform me after you bank in. dont make me go to your parents, i know they are not involve but who am i to get the money from if you dont pay. you know who fault is this.

     
  • At 6:42 PM , Blogger Cely said...

    Sam, bravo! I think you might need ppl to translate ur long English comment into mandarin. She might not understand what u r saying.

    Girl, u better return the money u owed so long! 请你马上还钱!!!

     
  • At 3:58 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    It is so funny to see that people actually claimed that they wanted to stay in neutral position but they failed. Dudes, I'll try my best to stay into neutral but I don't think I can. So, I wanna say out loud that I am biased to nothing but I fight for the dignity as a man.

    First of all, thanks to the creation of internet by U.S. Department of Defense. Everyone can discuss everything online. But please try not to use something like ‘whore’ to address people in a blog, it is very rude and offensive. Do you guys know that not many people use this word in so called English-speaking world? Well, don’t try to apply anything that you’ve learnt from the Hollywood movies. And Hxxx, please think about yourself when you start pointing your fingers to others. Language is just a communication tool. If you find yourself in very difficult situation of understanding a broken-English article, you could have just skipped it because it is others’ blog and mind your own business, bitch (oh, just another demonstration showing people not to use any coarse language in others blog). And yes, you have the absolute freedom to write everything you want and then it just reflects what kinda person you are at the end of the day.

    Sorry for the deviation of the topic. Please stand up straight and be a man, the so called ex-bf. I am certainly agreed with you guys that she should return the money in term of ETHICS (wow, such a strong word used by people). However, Sam, you don’t have to bring a whole bunch of people to the blog and HELP you to get back the money. This is the thing between your ex and you and it should remain between u guys. At the very first place, why did you Offer to lend out the money? I know you were in love with him, Sam. But pls do not expect anything back once u offered and it’ll never work out that way in a relationship. There is no 1+1=2 equation. Yeah, your ex might be a gold-digger or she is materialistic and I am pretty sure you know her very well. Come on, I am a guy and I know what were you thinking at that time, Sam. I think she would have returned the money to you if you behaved a little gentler on the phone or telling the truth. Oh yeah, did you just turn down the volume of speaker as if you already speak softly? But now, just get over it and I don’t think that badmouthing each others in cyberspace will help you, it will get worse instead.

    Sam, just be cool, do not disgrace man. Do what a man should do, keep this between you and your ex and try to solve it in a delicate way. I feel bad for you if the money was from your parents? But again, why did you pay the tuition while you could not afford it?

    Pls don’t criticize my English ‘cos I try my best to polish it. Most importantly, learn not to swear at people.

     
  • At 4:49 AM , Blogger Belle said...

    I am belle. my dear, i think u did wwatch too much of teletubbies, first of all bitch, whore, fuck is all common word
    ..guess that you dont reckon eh?i can stand her splatting stinking things on me.but now you who knows nuts and giving such nonchalant comment?would you please goto www.beechybelle.com b4 you give such a not very impressive comment?i am sure you will be however very surprise with the attitude of this angelic girl after u read all the smses and ofcoz the many things she'd done to give us hard time. but i guess you might as well still bombard us after reading my entry because you are in the ground of CANT JUDGE ON NEUTRAL POSITION.
    SHE PUT THIS IN PUBLIC FIRST not us.
    never apply morallity issues here because the one who offended it in the 1st place is this "kind girl"
    well you think whole bunch of people came here just to flame her?we are not bullies. we have strong base and she commmited a breach of trust, defamation and ofcoz again, she bring me into this chaotic matter, and bring this to blog. so who is the one who put this out..
    so what its not her intention to put in blog for herself to read..which is impossible, BLOG IS ONLINE ARTICLE AND OFCOZ you know very well ITS MEANT TO BE SEEN TO PUBLIC! and it came to us..
    do you, very kind man expect us to keep quiet after all the hard time she'd caused? you said stop the bad mouthing..CANT YOU SEE YOU ARE THE LAST WHO COMMENTeD HERE B4 I DO? we'd shut up before you decided to irresponsibly dropped a unbelievable comment.
    I DARE U TO COMMENT ONE MORE TIME ON SAM'S ATTITUDE OR MINE OR OTHERS
    AFTER READING THE WHOLE ARTICLE OF MINE.
    its typed base on 100% of what happened along with smses she sent.
    and what your article reflects you? a shallow lil man who knows nuts acted smart. what you loss her makes you loss in your balls too, coz you are seriously being a faggot beggin sam not to disgrace man. you egosim? -0 =] make sure you are on the right side to utter sometihng.
    my dear, if you have realise you'd just addressed her a tranny in paragraph 3. lucky you coz ill be the only one who will reply you comment for once.

     
  • At 12:30 PM , Blogger littlepinkie said...

    shame on u.. we dont support him for no reason. accusing ppl is ur major field izit? try to do something that benefit urself and others. use ur brain to think what is the best thing to do.

     
  • At 6:36 PM , Blogger Huei said...

    Brent, if you have the guts and balls, then use your true identity. link your blog, or your mail, stop being a wuss and put up a stupid name to comment.

    ofcourse you can't be in a neutral position, you're siding this WHORE. and who are you to say that WHORE is not a widely used word? WHO are you to claim that it's only used in hollywood movies? then what word shall we use? Prostitude? Hooker?

    *thinking about self*

    I think i have amazing english as compared to her! language is a communication tool, communication is important. now maybe i understand why you're blindly supporting this BITCH, because obviously you don't understand her, because she has poor communication skills.

    THIS was a situation between this girl and sam. sam tried to settle it, but what did she do? tell him to "slowly wait"? SHE owe him money, and he wants her to pay, what's wrong with that?

    asking me to mind my own business? RIGHT BACK AT YOU looser! who's business are you minding now? belle is my good friend, and i will NOT watch my friend being accused without standing up for them!

    learn not to swear at people? well you failed miserably. and FYI, i didn't use a word of vulgarity in my previous comments, and since you refer to me as a bitch, there's no way i could refrain.

    if you're so gutsy, they pay on her behalf, otherwise, SHUT THE FUCK UP!

     
  • At 8:10 PM , Blogger Bluefantasy said...

    glad to see this essay

     
  • At 8:10 PM , Blogger Bluefantasy said...

    glad to see this essay

     
  • At 3:21 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    哎喲,樓上的那些人都不知道有 msn 這個聊天系統嗎? 做麽要搞到借用別人的部落來互相聊天,還自己聊自己爽,我看了都傻眼。

    所以我都跟我朋友說了,以爲說英文就是比動物聰明的人。

    其實他們排泄系統都是長在嘴巴。因爲動不動就用嘴巴fuck,要不然就是shit。

    唉~最無辜的是他們的眼睛都是老花,整天看到人類就把人家當成son of bitch。看到他們的所作所爲還真的是好笑。

     
  • At 10:22 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    sam oh sam....

    be gentleman la....shame on you! u n tara had got a great time before...why hurt each other? u..not a man....u ...a chicken little.....chicken little....chicken litte.....

     

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