Sunday, August 13, 2006

mimosa


爱穿黄色裙子，吞种子，不爱讲话，让人以为我是哑巴，
爱抱我的洋娃娃，藏埋它的奶嘴，采含羞草的粉红小花，
爱看天空，和月亮讲话，哼着不知名的小曲，然后迷路，
爱一个人的玩耍，爬上屋后的小山丘，然后推堂妹跌倒，
爱和男生打架，爱扎碎老师派的习题纸，用石头丢破爸爸的车镜，

讨厌面目狞狰的公公婆婆，老是咒骂着我们，
讨厌心居不良的姑姑们，老是乘爸爸不在时欺负妈妈，
讨厌老是面对着爱造嘈音的人，吵架打架画面老是重播着，
讨厌老是重复问我同样问题的坏人们，因为我是不会回答你们的，
讨厌被打过后的自己，不会放声大哭，只会好奇的舔着我的血液，

美丽的下午，我总是找不到人说话，玩耍，
昏黄的黄昏，我总是跟失了妈妈和弟弟的踪影，
寂寞的夜晚，我总是恐惧的望着天花板，无法入眠，
可怕的噩梦，我总是掉进了水里，无法呼吸，
无法倒流的过去，总是重复有重复着每一天，

可是，为什么现在的我，
无法像童年一样，享受一个人的生活？
无法回到童年里的那个地方，找回娃娃的奶嘴？
无法再次看到，那罕有的黄色含羞草小花?

杰克说我小时候有自闭倾向，是吗？
我只能一笑置之。

posted by 大眼睛 @ 10:15 AM  

9 Comments:

  • At 4:23 AM , Blogger =KaReN= said...

    i think when we grow older we tend to be responsible tats why we cant really enjoy our life... as a kidz we dont need to stress with anything, we can just sit quietly and imagine so many stuffs... many ppl will miss their children life, we too feel the same... how i wish i can be a child and there's someone who will protect me...

     

  • At 5:14 AM , Blogger lim keh soon said...

    小安在十岁的时候离开了妈妈的身边，
    开始了寄人篱下的生活。
    XXX
    他除了帮忙店里的杂务，还要负责洗
    刷楼梯的工作，偶尔还得服侍长辈们的饮食，当跑腿。。

    一天小安刷楼梯的时候终于忍不住，
    “干吗不叫他们自己的宝贝儿子做呢？”
    好奇的小安问比他年长两岁的哥哥。
    哥哥继续的刷着那长长的楼梯，
    没有任何的反应。。

    “是不是因为妈妈不在我们身边呢？”
    小安继续的问。。
    “刷完了去洗澡”
    哥哥冷冷的说。。。。

     

  • At 5:58 AM , Blogger 大眼睛 said...

    to karen
    i think still got lotz kids with heavy works along with them out there, their rights have been taken by others..

    to junkie,
    小安的哥哥还好吗？每个不平凡的人都有着不平凡的童年？希望这在我眼里是不平凡的童年变成了每个小孩平凡的童年。

     

  • At 9:32 AM , Blogger 小姚 said...

    很久没给大眼睛留言了；
    是因为近来少和她联系；
    还是看见大眼睛有很多人爱抚着；
    吃起醋来，嘻。

    童年永远存着一个梦；
    我们都走过最纯真的路；
    是自己一个人开心的度过；
    还是和亲人一起；
    那时是那样的幸福和无忧；

    还记得小时候想做个天文学家；
    看着满天的星星；
    和别人说起星系里的星座；
    听那一段又一段的故事。

    "那天，我写了讯息给你。"
    "流星划过，将夜空刷亮；
    你看见了吗？双鱼游进了天枰的星系里；
    哪天，天枰会看见双鱼早已住进了心里？"

     

  • At 11:25 AM , Blogger =KaReN= said...

    yeah tats true... all parents nowadays wanna give the best to their kids but never realize tat they are suffering behind... everytime i saw my cousins need to study hard or else will get scolding i felt so heart pain for them... at least studying is just a burden for them... but once u grew up u will have more... the older u are there are more stress waiting for us...

     

  • At 2:57 AM , Blogger 大眼睛 said...

    是呀小姚，最近都各忙个的。有空出来吃个饭吧！

    karen,
    wat i most sad is those kid with those less educated parents, kids will only follow wat their parents do, like talk foul language, smoke, careless, argues, fighting, violence...etc, tats y come lotz problems teenagers, in their life, they lost the chance to see out of the world, they tot they born to be go after girls, pregnant before marry, no money to give wifes or parents is reasonable, lepak with some friends and drunk alot...etc..is this the life? they never know, they can do more than that, coz this terrible concept is alredi plant in their heart since they were small... unless they realise...

     

  • At 11:14 AM , Blogger =KaReN= said...

    i get wat u mean liao... haha... i also dunno wats wrong with this world liao... its so hard to explore and explain... ^_^ who are to be blame??

     

  • At 1:05 AM , Blogger 大眼睛 said...

    blame those who never take good care of their responsibilities.. so, don give birth to a child if donno how to teach.. at least we can cut down some problems.. hehe..

     

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